Gardening Tips

I have an interesting garden
where I have learned to let things grow
as they were intended

the lawn is not manicured
and neither are my hands
I rarely use gloves
when I dig in the dirt

Ijust sit and  stare sometimes
at empty spaces
and imagine the possibilities
of what can grow here
or there

I try to dig out the rocks and pebbles
that would hinder the tender roots
of young plants
and after I scatter the grass seeds
I wait
and water
and watch

when the first green sprouts appear
I rejoice
and then I get to work
scattering some more seeds in the bald spots
so that I fill in the gaps
that were left behind
unknowingly

I have learned to thrive where
I was planted
and if I moved to another
I put down roots there
and waited for the sun to shine

there are no weeds in my garden
as my eyes don't recognise them
for a rose grower a rice plant is a weed
for a rice grower, a rose is one

so it is perspective then
and patience
that waters the fertile Earth
and I wait eagerly for this oasis
to thrive.

Why this, why now?

A relaxed day, long overdue. A doctor's appointment to discuss a two year old accident and the aftermath that still comes to visit, through pain and fear.

And now, with the family away, with just the cat for company, I am thinking aloud to friends and cousins I have never or not met in a while.

With the kids growing up, and 20 years of marriage behind me and parents not physically around in this world, I am reinventing myself and fulfilling long dormant dreams.

Yes, as mothers and wives, some of us tend to tell ourselves that "later"is a real concept and that people will indeed let us be free, but sometimes you have to wrench that freedom from the grasp of other people's needs.

Don't need me so much please. Let me live for myself too, just a little bit.

I like it.